TGIF and Wee little mice who talk and help clean...

[Sally's letter to Gillian] "Sometimes I feel like there's a hole inside of me, an emptiness that at times seems to burn. I think if you lifted my heart to your ear, you could probably hear the ocean. The moon tonight, there's a circle around it. Sign of trouble not far behind. I have this dream of being whole. Of not going to sleep each night, wanting. But still sometimes, when the wind is warm or the crickets sing... I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for. I just want someone to love me. I want to be seen. I don't know. Maybe I had my happiness. I don't want to believe it but, there is no man, Gilly. Only that moon…"

One of the saddest things that I have ever been told is “There is no such thing as a Knight in Shining Armor” It was one of those random events that stoned me. The first time I heard it, was from husband #2, and then from various other people in my life.
I would just like to state for the record, that I have never needed a swash buckling anything to come and show me the way out of the castle and into the promised land, but more so someone loyal, brave and kind, willing to help slay the dragons, and who adores and loves me and treats with the up-most respect. The Knight of “always going to be there when you call.”
I believe in the kind of love that weathers every storm, that becomes well worn and trust worthy. I want there to be the happily ever after where the boy gets the girl and they stay together until the credits roll. Chivalry cannot be dead! I want to stand on the side of Hallmark and shout that the crap they have inside of the mushy Valentines Day cards can be true, that it is possible, and real, and out there in the real world, people have found it.
I do not ever want to get swallowed up in the bitterness and regret. I have before and the occasional wallow isn’t something not on my radar by any stretch, but without the rope of real love and connection, I wouldn’t like it here very much. I do love to pretend that I am bitter and jaded and that love and emotion are for suckers. It makes me feel more in control of situations that I truly have not that much control over.
If I ever have children of my own to pass that knowledge on to, I would absolutely tell them they should never settle for anything less then falling in love and spending the rest of their lives with their best friend. Giving in to the harshness just feels like giving up on the best things in life to me. I do not ever want to admit defeat on the happily ever after. Life would be awfully gray. I can slay the dragon just fine thank you, but it is better with a true partner.